During the past 5 months, I have been working hard to make changes in my life. Whether physical, mental, emotional or spiritual, I have been actively pursuing a "better me". Here's my story...
It all started in 2008. After a series of health issues, overwhelming amounts of homework, financial problems, new home, job change and a sudden breakup, I fell into a bit of a depression. Of course, the classic alcohol/food fix became a staple in my daily life and combined with my new sit-down, cubical job, I very quickly gained roughly 30 pounds. In fact, it only took 3 months to flip from an average, healthy build to a sloppy blimp. In the year that followed, I had gained an additional 10-15 pounds, putting me at a weight that I never thought I'd hit.
I was unhappy and so embarrassed of myself that I refused to hang out with friends. I quit going to church; in fact, I had made up my mind that I was incredibly angry with the church for reasons far too involved to include in this post. I was surprised to see how quickly my persona changed and became the bitter mess that I am now. Simply said, I don't like who I've allowed myself to become. I don't have a relationship with God, and find it very difficult to be happy in my own skin.
It's time for a change.
In August of this year I decided that it was time to take some steps to a happier, healthier me. I cut sugar from my diet and began walking. What started as about a mile a day turned into four miles a day and a loss of about 20 pounds in a matter of a month and a half. I was ecstatic. (I can't help but wonder what took me so long to realize that all I had to do was take the first step?) I did really well staying active until the end of the school semester when I simply became too busy for anything but my full time job and my full time class load.
So now it's the end of the year. I'm still 20 pounds lighter than I was 5 months ago, and I have SO much more energy than I've felt in 3 years! Since finals I have resorted to my old junking out habits and I think I may have only exercised once; but there's still 30 pounds to go before I meet my goal! It's time to crack down and get serious. I was invited to join a couple of my coworkers in their very, very early morning workouts. Though I can't say I'm looking forward to running and weight lifting at 4:45 in the morning, I am excited for the accountability!
.........so this is what my blog is going to be about; however weight loss isn't the only change I'm looking to make. I will be posting about my daily pursuit to get to know God again as well. Even though I feel so much different just being 20 pounds lighter, I still hold a lot of bitterness and my attitude is not where it should be.
I look forward to seeing what this new year brings!
