A Fresh Start

My last three years have been very spiritually dry....and I hate it. I have been angry with the church for reasons that I cannot control, and as a result, I have been boycotting all things Christian. I understand that church is not necessarily where God happens; but it's so easy to correlate hurt and church with God himself.

I'm not going to get into any stories here as they are not mine to share. What happened happened and I can't change it, nor can I justify continuing life in bitterness. It's time to let go. A good friend of mine confronted me recently on my attitude toward God. "Aly," she said, "People hurt people, but you're not serving people. You serve God. Until you figure this out, you will always be discontented." Ouch. I had allowed myself to become angry with God because of the actions of people.

I. Am. Silly.

So here's to a fresh start. After a lot of shopping, prayer and consideration, I have officially decided on a church home. What's more? I'm taking steps to get involved. I just registered for a young adult discussion group where we will meet once a week for open discussions regarding biblical studies, different religions and other relevant topics. This will give me an opportunity to learn through another's perspective, voice my own and develop friendships. I'm excited, nervous and already feeling my defenses going up; but I'm looking forward to seeing what God's going to do.

Have any of you gone through similar situations?